Ok, so it's 12:01, which means, I'm officially 20. Fuck, I'm old. I'm not a teenager anymore....I mean, there goes like a third of my life. I wont be adding the word "teen" after my age anymore, which basically means, I'm an adult. An adult. Too old to be a kid, too young to be a parent, yet considered an adult. I'm just stuck in the middle...like that fish-looking kid, Malcom.
UGH...cant I just keep all my presents and still be 19? Cuz I think I'm still 19 in Hawaii or something...I dont know. I mean, my life’s going pretty well and all, but I look around and I just see so many of my friends and peers who’ve accomplished so many of their goals and most of them aren't even 20. They have direction, whereas I, am still just trying to figure it all out.
But like my friend 3D says, "Ya gotta grab life by the balls and yell out, "FUCK IT, I'M 20!" Of course, my friend 3D is always poppin' some kinda new pill, so his advice isnt really taken as a final thought. But maybe there is some truth in it. Maybe turning 20 isnt so bad...hold on, my phone's ringing.
Ok, so I just got off the phone with my friend Litzaya (who just so happens to share the same birthday as me! HAPPY BIRTHDAY LITZAYA!) and I'm just totally in love with her. Well, not in that way, but you know what I mean.
ME: Ugh, it's such a bitch turning 20.
UGH...cant I just keep all my presents and still be 19? Cuz I think I'm still 19 in Hawaii or something...I dont know. I mean, my life’s going pretty well and all, but I look around and I just see so many of my friends and peers who’ve accomplished so many of their goals and most of them aren't even 20. They have direction, whereas I, am still just trying to figure it all out.
But like my friend 3D says, "Ya gotta grab life by the balls and yell out, "FUCK IT, I'M 20!" Of course, my friend 3D is always poppin' some kinda new pill, so his advice isnt really taken as a final thought. But maybe there is some truth in it. Maybe turning 20 isnt so bad...hold on, my phone's ringing.
Ok, so I just got off the phone with my friend Litzaya (who just so happens to share the same birthday as me! HAPPY BIRTHDAY LITZAYA!) and I'm just totally in love with her. Well, not in that way, but you know what I mean.
ME: Ugh, it's such a bitch turning 20.
LITZAYA: Why?
ME: Well, you know, it's cuz...ok, I'm 20 right?
LITZAYA: Yeah...
ME: Well, it's like, I'm one year older and I still have no idea what I wanna do in life you know? I mean, you have your professional basketball dream, Eliana has her medical assistant dream, and even Danny has a dream to own his own business someday. It's like, y'all have your own little paths made, and y'all know whats at the end of it. And y'all are younger than me, and I'm still clueless.
LITZAYA: So? Who cares if you dont know where you're going? Not everyone knows what path they're gonna take and besides...getting there is half the fun. So why rush to it? Just have fun and enjoy life, and then before you know it, your path pops up right in front of you, you old fart!
Litzaya, you are so smart and so awesome. No wonder you're at NAU and I'm still stuck in Tucson at Pima. Those are just pearls of wisdom (except for that 'old fart' comment...how immature!) But whatever. I'm 20. That feels so cool to say it. I'm 20. I'm 20. Nah, it's too early. I'm 19 and 12 months...totally better. Another year older, and none the wiser.
Litzaya, you are so smart and so awesome. No wonder you're at NAU and I'm still stuck in Tucson at Pima. Those are just pearls of wisdom (except for that 'old fart' comment...how immature!) But whatever. I'm 20. That feels so cool to say it. I'm 20. I'm 20. Nah, it's too early. I'm 19 and 12 months...totally better. Another year older, and none the wiser.
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