So, this past weekend I saw the movie In Her Shoes, with Maria and had a horrifying revalation presented to me.
I wont spoil the movie at all, but in it, Cameron Diaz's character, Rose, is this free-spirited party girl, who cant seem to keep a job for more than a month, and dreams of making it famous one day. Throughout the movie, Rose lives the care-free life and pays the consequences as she is kicked out from house to house, only to end up living with her grandmother at a retirement center.
Throughout the movie, I was constantly reminded that my way of life mirrored Cameron Diaz's character. At first, I laughed at the very idea. But as the movie progressed, and I saw Cameron Diaz act like a spaz on the big screen (which I dont think was to far from real life) I began to wonder if there was any truth in Maria's assumption.
MARIA: Well, it's not like I'm lying or anything.
ME: Ugh! Maria!
MARIA: What? Like your gonna stand there and tell me, you did not see yourself on that big screen?
ME: I dont know.
MARIA: David, how long do you last at your jobs?
ME: What do you mean?
MARIA: How long do you last at your jobs?
Maria had a point. For the past year, the longest I had held a job was 2 months, 1 week and 4 days. And the sad thing is...no, wait, that is the sad thing. I mean, the only other job I've had, was the one where I worked at Forever 21.
From November 2003 to April 2004, I worked as a sales associate, but left after my ex-best friend Isabel, told the manager I was the ringleader in a recent employee shoplifting scandal. She was jealous that I was on my way to becoming an assistant manager, and made up some B.S. that my wardrobe was lacking in the cheap, synthetic-fabric department, and well...I quit. Or got fired. I'm not sure. I mean, I know they told me my "services were no longer needed" but I replied with, "To hell with my services, I quit!" Anyways...
I didnt work again until January of this year, because I told myself, I needed a break and wanted to prepare myself for college. The reality was, I couldnt land a job if my life depended on it. Not even seasonal.
But as Maria and I talked some more, I kinda got the feeling that maybe living the care-free life wasnt so horrible.
MARIA: I mean, dont get me wrong, I'm not trying to put you down or anything, it's just I wish I could be more like that.
ME: More like what?
MARIA: More laid back. I'm always stressing over my work, over school, I stress over everything. And you dont.
ME: I stress!
MARIA: Yeah. Over your hair.
ME: What?!
MARIA: I'm kidding. But no, for reals. You hardly ever stress. Everytime I call you, you're either watching TV or shopping or hanging out with someone.
ME: Not these days...
MARIA: And you always look like you're going to a party or something.
ME: Aw, thanks. I do try.
MARIA: And yet, you always pass your classes. Even in high school, you were the biggest ditcher I knew. You were always drinking and smoking...
ME: Maria! I did not smoke!
MARIA: David...
ME: Well, at least not ciggerates...
MARIA: The point is, you've always had this laid-back-fuck-you-world-take-me-as-I-am-or-dont kinda additude and I've always admired that. You dont care what other people think, and you dont stress over everything. You dont care about the consequences, you just live for the moment. I wish I was more like that.
You wish you were more careless? So, now I dont know if thats a good quality or not. Is it something I should be proud of, or something I should work on? Or should I take pride in the fact I'm living the life my friends wanna live? Thanks a lot Cameron...
I wont spoil the movie at all, but in it, Cameron Diaz's character, Rose, is this free-spirited party girl, who cant seem to keep a job for more than a month, and dreams of making it famous one day. Throughout the movie, Rose lives the care-free life and pays the consequences as she is kicked out from house to house, only to end up living with her grandmother at a retirement center.
Throughout the movie, I was constantly reminded that my way of life mirrored Cameron Diaz's character. At first, I laughed at the very idea. But as the movie progressed, and I saw Cameron Diaz act like a spaz on the big screen (which I dont think was to far from real life) I began to wonder if there was any truth in Maria's assumption.
MARIA: Well, it's not like I'm lying or anything.
ME: Ugh! Maria!
MARIA: What? Like your gonna stand there and tell me, you did not see yourself on that big screen?
ME: I dont know.
MARIA: David, how long do you last at your jobs?
ME: What do you mean?
MARIA: How long do you last at your jobs?
Maria had a point. For the past year, the longest I had held a job was 2 months, 1 week and 4 days. And the sad thing is...no, wait, that is the sad thing. I mean, the only other job I've had, was the one where I worked at Forever 21.
From November 2003 to April 2004, I worked as a sales associate, but left after my ex-best friend Isabel, told the manager I was the ringleader in a recent employee shoplifting scandal. She was jealous that I was on my way to becoming an assistant manager, and made up some B.S. that my wardrobe was lacking in the cheap, synthetic-fabric department, and well...I quit. Or got fired. I'm not sure. I mean, I know they told me my "services were no longer needed" but I replied with, "To hell with my services, I quit!" Anyways...
I didnt work again until January of this year, because I told myself, I needed a break and wanted to prepare myself for college. The reality was, I couldnt land a job if my life depended on it. Not even seasonal.
But as Maria and I talked some more, I kinda got the feeling that maybe living the care-free life wasnt so horrible.
MARIA: I mean, dont get me wrong, I'm not trying to put you down or anything, it's just I wish I could be more like that.
ME: More like what?
MARIA: More laid back. I'm always stressing over my work, over school, I stress over everything. And you dont.
ME: I stress!
MARIA: Yeah. Over your hair.
ME: What?!
MARIA: I'm kidding. But no, for reals. You hardly ever stress. Everytime I call you, you're either watching TV or shopping or hanging out with someone.
ME: Not these days...
MARIA: And you always look like you're going to a party or something.
ME: Aw, thanks. I do try.
MARIA: And yet, you always pass your classes. Even in high school, you were the biggest ditcher I knew. You were always drinking and smoking...
ME: Maria! I did not smoke!
MARIA: David...
ME: Well, at least not ciggerates...
MARIA: The point is, you've always had this laid-back-fuck-you-world-take-me-as-I-am-or-dont kinda additude and I've always admired that. You dont care what other people think, and you dont stress over everything. You dont care about the consequences, you just live for the moment. I wish I was more like that.
You wish you were more careless? So, now I dont know if thats a good quality or not. Is it something I should be proud of, or something I should work on? Or should I take pride in the fact I'm living the life my friends wanna live? Thanks a lot Cameron...
|